Today is 17 August. Hmmm....It has already been exactly one year :). I still remember very well about 17 August, 2010 which is an unforgettable day in my life. Why is it unforgettable??? Ok, I wanna tell a little bit about that day.
At the time when he loved me secretly, he composed about the moon and sky as the metaphors for one girl in his poems. I noticed the girl is who by reading his poems, but I just kept quiet like I didn't get any sense.
One day, he unexpectedly told me about him that there is a girl at his hometown whom he agreed to get married one day by the arrangement of the parents. As soon as I had known about that, I decided to disconnect him because I thought I should not stay with him friendly anymore. By keeping contact each other too long, it would happen only sufferings for both of us. I thought about that and I avoided him.
In these moments, he sent mails to me by composing the songs for me and he wrote that he waited me online everyday and requested me to chat with him once I was available. I felt very sorry whenever I received like that emails from him. But, I didn't do that.
One day, he unexpectedly told me about him that there is a girl at his hometown whom he agreed to get married one day by the arrangement of the parents. As soon as I had known about that, I decided to disconnect him because I thought I should not stay with him friendly anymore. By keeping contact each other too long, it would happen only sufferings for both of us. I thought about that and I avoided him.
In these moments, he sent mails to me by composing the songs for me and he wrote that he waited me online everyday and requested me to chat with him once I was available. I felt very sorry whenever I received like that emails from him. But, I didn't do that.
Amazingly, on 17 August 2010, he posted a poem on facebook. I really can't forget that poem and the event at that night. After I've read this poem, I was willing to tease him something regarding the poem although I decided not to chat with him at all. Is it a miracle to fall in love with him that I can't control to break my promise to myself? I started to make a chit-chat with him. He was very happy and then he spoke out that the moon in his poems, the metaphor for the girl he loves, is me.
This is unbelievable. I thought we can never meet each other outside at all. I thought we have no chance to show up what we feel about each other. But, finally, he can show up all his feelings about me and I can accept all as well. How a wonderful thing!!!
I'll never forget about this and actually I want him not to forget too. But, I think he might forget now all the events at that day because he can't even remember anything when I asked him about a special thing he did in the month of August. I'm not sure the memories of a person depend on gender or the extent of love or that person. However, I don't blame him about it. I understand that he has his right to keep in his memory just what he likes to. It's enough for me if I never forget about that day and I'll keep all these events as the unforgettable memories in my life.
And one more....although it has been a long time already that he doesn't say the word "I love you" to me, I wanna say.... :)
"My sweetheart, I love you".
